I didn’t always know who I was. I spent years trying to fit into places I didn’t belong, chasing approval, hiding pain, and running from the truth. My story isn’t perfect, but it’s mine. And it’s proof that God can rescue anyone—even from the pits of hell.

🧃 The Father Wound

Growing up, my dad wasn’t really around. I went to live with him during my seventh and eighth grade years, and it was far from easy. He struggled with alcohol and had a temper that could go from zero to a thousand in seconds. My stepmother made me feel small, invisible. I struggled in school, not because I couldn’t learn, but because I was lost—searching for identity, belonging, and safety.

💔 The Spiral

Before I lived with my father, I was out trying to find one. I tried to fit in with crowds that glorified violence, chaos, and false power. I thought riding around with people carrying guns made me tough. I thought hurting others was how you got respect. I was wrong.

I spiraled into alcohol and drug abuse for years. I made choices I regret. I hurt people. I disappointed myself. But I never stopped talking to God. Even when I felt ashamed, even when I was stuck in cycles of insanity—repeating the same mistakes and expecting different results—I knew He was there.

🙏 The Surrender

There came a moment when I couldn’t fake it anymore. I told God, “I’m sorry. I love You. I need Your help.” I gave it all to Him. And He didn’t turn away. He became the only father I truly had. Not in flesh, but in spirit. I could hear Him in my thoughts, see Him in signs, feel Him in moments of grace. He never stopped pushing me to be better.

🧠 Discernment and Accountability

I don’t run from my past. I take accountability for what I’ve done because it made me who I am today. I’ve learned that life is too short to hate, too precious to waste on jealousy, and too sacred to spend chasing things that go nowhere.

Sometimes we can make amends. Sometimes we can’t. That’s where discernment comes in. You have to ask: Is this the right time? Will this bring healing or more harm? I always say it’s better to tie up loose ends than leave mysteries unsolved—but not every knot needs to be pulled.

💡 The Light That Shines

Today, I listen with empathy. I care deeply about others. I don’t think I’m better than anyone, and I never will. I believe in rooting for others, not tearing them down. I believe in letting your light shine—because someone out there needs it.

If you’re carrying shame, regret, or pain, don’t beat yourself up. God is your number one fan. He loves you unconditionally. You’re not alone. You’re not forgotten. And you’re worth it.

So breathe in the morning air. Look at the sun, the stars, the oceans, the deserts—all created for you. Life doesn’t have to be misery. It can be joy. It can be healing. It can be light.

Let your light shine bright. God bless you.